I am Alone

I’ve finally broken through the wall my medicine constructed in my heart. I haven’t been taking it regularly, partially just because I’ve been busy and forgetting, and partially because, deep down, I don’t like what it’s doing to me.

I know, I know. I said you shouldn't skip your medicine. I’m convincing myself again that I don’t need it.

Tonight, I was finally able to feel pain. The only thing worse than pain, is not being able to feel at all. That medicine creates something inhuman, and I don’t want to be that. I want to be able to feel again. So far, it’s just shut down my emotions. Tonight, I was able to cry again.

It’s storming out.

You may feel alone
When your falling asleep
And every time tears
Roll down your cheeks
I know your heart belongs
To someone you’ve yet to meet
Someday you will be loved

I am very alone tonight, and suddenly, I can't stand being away from him.

-Lisa