Stage 1

Somehow I get the feeling that I'm going to be writing a lot in the next couple of days, possibly multiple times a day.

I just had a thought, and it made a couple things a little clearer for me. This has been true for me for a long time, and it's still a major part of how I learn.

When I learn, I want to gain experience and knowledge, simply because I want to be better in that area. Art, video, photography, writing...

I learn because I want to.

When I have to follow a schedule, a lesson plan, and have to be graded on what I'm taking in, I close up. Not on purpose. My mind just shuts down when I am forced to learn something. Even if it is something I want to know, I can't be force fed information. I think this is more true for things I like than things I don't care much about. So many times I've said that I wish I could just sit in on classes and soak everything up. When you are taking a course, your mind is scrambled to take in information quickly so you can spew it back out on a test or paper.

Why do people have to be graded anyway? Is it a bribe? Or just a way to convince people to try hard? Well, I would work without a bribe. I would prefer it.

It's not really that I'm afraid of getting bad grades. I guess in my head it is just too much of a system. Like, 10 points off if you hand this in late. What does that matter? Shouldn't you be looking at the context?

This is only one issue I have with school. This still doesn't complete my big problem, but I guess it's a start in understanding what is going on.

Closed!

-Lisa