Lately I've been ridiculously tired. I don't mean to complain about it, because I don't have much of a reason. I just think it's odd. Well, I do still keep waking up around 7 and I've been feeling sick a lot, but these are things I'm used to now. It didn't bother me while at home, and I was doing more while there. Or, at least, I think I was.
It seems that my mind is a bit foggy right now.
Last night we went to Funk 'n Waffle, just as I had hoped. I like being able to go out with friends like that. I don't mind being around people I don't know well anymore. It's like I'm becoming an adult or something.
But, even now, I feel like I'm just a child.
After a bit of traveling and not know what we were doing, we managed to get back to the dorm and put a movie in. Movies and games are mostly what have been going on lately. I knew I had to work on this play most of the night, but I'm used to doing that. That is one of the reasons why I'm staying in the dorm, even though recording is done. I have a deadline, and it helps me to work(I've been working on it since 9 this morning, and this is my break). For some reason, though, I got really frustrated with it last night, and could barely even touch it.
Something happened to all of us last night that made everyone tired. We reflected on what we did that evening, and it hardly called for naps. But somehow, none of us managed to see the end of the movie.
Kristi went to bed somewhere towards the beginning. I knew she was overly tired, but I don't think she wanted to accept it. I can always tell with her.
Anthony fell asleep somewhere around then too. Silly guy. I woke him up a little after midnight, and the first thing he said to me was, "Where am I?"
I partially fell asleep. It was after giving up on trying to concentrate on the play that I crawled up next to Ricky and rested against him. It seems like everytime we've watched movies together, I just want to fall asleep leaning against him. At one point I noticed that my head must have been gradually been falling because eventually I could hear his heartbeat.
Last night was a little strange for me. He had to leave sometime around 11, which I knew he would. I didn't even feel that distraught about him leaving on the last day of school. I can't pinpoint as to why either. I didn't want to let go of him...
I wanted to walk with him outside, and I kept saying it over again in my head, but I was so tired that I could barely speak. After he left, I laid back down on the couch and slept for an hour. I just wanted to sleep there all night, but it was too cold.
I'm waiting on Paster Bruce to get back to me. I sent him and email last night asking if he could somehow get us a place to stay for the weekend. That was a bit awkward, and I told him that. All my life I've hated asking people for things. Even now, I go over what I'm going to say or do countless times until I work myself up into a sweat over something silly, like asking Jessica if we can go grocery shopping.
So far, things seem to be going in a good direction, though. He immediately wrote back to me and said he would check with some people. He's supposed to call me sometime today (I think), so I need to get out of this basement so the call will actually go through.
Ah, it's time to go. Hopefully Pastor Bruce will have a solution for me, seeing as how this play isn't even close to being finished, and I already know there is no way I can stay up all night editing. I'm losing my insomnia powers I think.
-Lisa
疲れた - Sleepy
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Posted by Lisa at 2:14 PM
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