Code

It's evening now, and I'm feeling better. Although my desires haven't changed, I feel a bit more at ease. Did something happen to make it that way? Not so much in the physical world. My mind was resting for a short while, and it gave me a chance to recuperate.

But still, even now, I'm dizzy and short of breath. My body is still tense and my pounding heart makes my body shake. I know what it is from, but I don't know why.

I realize that I'm thinking too much about certain things, and trying to figure out stuff that either can't or shouldn't be touched (yet). I've even been told that. I know, but I have to learn it. I learned a bit today, just from a settled mind. No matter what knowledge I have, or advice I can take in, my soul has to be the one to accept something.

Can you believe it? I have almost twice as many entries than I did in all of 2007 already. Most of them in May. A lot has been on my mind, and lately this has really been my only complete release.

This evening, Anthony, Kristi, Ricky, and I (plus two of Anthony's friends who I don't know) went to watch Indiana Jones in the theatre. It's been far too long since I saw a movie in a theatre. It was great. Yeah, the movie was pretty good, but being there was just what I needed. I think staying in the "house" all day melts my brain. The theatre was quite impressive too(probably only to me, since the only theatre I've been in is stinky Massena's). I felt like I was sitting in an airplane seat. I also quite enjoyed the audio level and quality. For ages theatres have made me terribly nervous because of the loud noise and the dark, tingling air. But, this was nice. The gunshots were sharp, and all other sounds were so crisp. It made me jump, and that is something I've missed in movies.

Squishing in the back of that girl's car was interesting too. What an adventure :] I miss those.

I'll have to keep it short because I'm running out of battery. I could plug in my laptop, but there are still dishes to be washed, books to be read, and dreams to be dreamt.

But, I just so I can bring this entry to a point, I'll say this...

Never felt like this before.

-Lisa