Wow, this week has been really awful. Or was it last week? Both?
Finally, I've stopped crying. Hopefully, next time I'll remember that praying helps and should be used as a first resort, not a last. Still, I didn't get to talk with my mom much. We did a little one night, but it sort of turned into an arguement. Then yesterday, on the way back from the dentist, I got to tell her a little bit about things that have been bothering me.
As sort of a rebutle concerning my last post, I'd like to say that my mom really cares about me. For now, things are just really dark around here, and I don't think she can handle everything. It's really my own fault for keeping these things to myself anyway.
Now that I finally can write without raging emotions, you'd think I could start getting back into writing about older things, like the list I made oh so long ago. Instead, all I can think about right now is the huge pressure I'm under, and the collapse of my family life.
Last night Nina chewed her stitches out. She had just gotten back from getting fixed at the vet. We didn't notice until around 11 PM. Well, living in a tiny town means no emergency vets. I really would rather not relive the moment. It was truely terrible. Kristi... well... gets hysterical. If she was just upset, I don't think it would have been as devastating as it was. Instead, she started yelling at me and mom. It seems that everytime something happens, she jumps right into the middle, blaming everyone else about the problem and then whining about why she is doing something about it.
Well, that's what happened last night. Not being about to listen to another word from her swearing mouth, I escaped to my room. She obviously didn't notice, or care.
That's all for now. The physical symptoms of this saga are getting to me. The stress is making me naseaus and drained, so I'm going to just sit around for a while.
-Lisa
Less Crying, More Stress
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Posted by Lisa at 12:17 PM
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