Ah, sorry, but this Christmas-y entry won't be very cheery. Actually, I'm just stopping in to say, things aren't going so well. Before I start whining, you should know that I have another entry in the works about some TKD events, so just be patient. I'll get it up soon.
I guess it's normal to feel this way around Christmas time for some people. I feel lonely, a little trapped, and... some other things that I don't know how to describe. I had hoped to have a pleasant vacation from school and a nice Christmas. Hmm... I'm not devastated about anything, it's just a lingering weirdness.
Could it just be change? Age, maybe? We you're young, Christmas is always too far away. I don't think it is so much the gifts, but more of being around family and being excited and happy. Now that everyone is older now... maybe, we feel like we can't be excited about anything because we're too old. I know that isn't really right, but I don't know how else to explain it.
Asher and Erika aren't coming home. I didn't think that would bother me too much, seeing as how when they're home, I get lost behind them, but I suppose that is probably most of the reason why I feel so lonely.
I'm stressed out over Shojo Explosion. Eugh... I don't want to go into that tonight. All I can say for now is, will someone join, please? Someone who, in all honesty, wants to?
I have a headache. So-in-so is driving me crazy. Ugh, animals.
I have to tell you though, I don't feel as bad as I usually do when I come home. The fact that this is a special holiday must just make me feel worse.
Where was I going with this again?
Lots of thoughts are just piling up right now, and I'm getting a little overwhelmed. Life just isn't exactly enjoyable right now. It seems I'm the only one who thinks so too. I don't know what I'm going to do. For now, I just want to sleep.
-Lisa